It was like falling violently in love and being dumped abruptly in the same month. The rush, the wonder, the excitement, dreaming about what to write, composing a masterful post, publishing it on time, reveling in the comments. So satisfying, so fulfilling. Then ... it was over.
The newness of the relationship was so exhilarating. The adrenaline rush, unmatchable. Fresh, new, unknown blogs to read, 1,700 from which to choose. I was giddy from the possibilities.
But like any new relationship I eventually discovered little quirks that displeased, me such as private blogs (how do you expect me to read you?), word verification (I can't always understand you), content which was sometimes offensive (all I wanted was a pure, beautiful relationship), the inability to leave comments (how can we get to know each other if we don't communicate?), very long posts (it's true, I was guilty of this too, my darling).
Despite the abrupt end to our wild and stimulating relationship, I gained so much. You opened up a whole new world for me. I met so many new people, many of whom I hope will still be my friends even though you and I are no longer together.
New opportunities, such an unexpected boon. Because of you I will be reviewing books on my blog. I'm thrilled to read different books and now I can review them so that the world will know them too. Would this have happened without you? I don't know, but you have opened up my world.
What would I change about you if I could? Oh my beloved, I didn't want you to sell me things. I turned away from you when I recognized your motive. I wanted a love affair not a sales meeting. That made me feel so used, so defiled.
And, my beloved, though it was so addictive being with you everyday, I realized that I couldn't let you consume me anymore. There is a whole life still to be lived away from the keyboard, away from the alphabet, away from you. But, maybe we can meet again next year?
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